Are You Happy?

A long break from Blogging

2005-07-23T14:06:00.000+08:00

xia la jus realised that it has been weeks since i last posted lol. quite long xia.

whenever i dun blog it juz means either of the 2 things thats happening to me. it is either i am so occupied with things or jus simply i super no mood and sad.

in this case ya heng it is the former. past few weeks i almost nv book out from tekong during the weekdays. ya u may think i am siao or sumthing but i am really having fun haha. -_- nowadays every monday wed and fri i will be running 8 to 12 km which that starts at about 4 plus pm. and it will end at abot 6 plus. so one of the main reason for me not going home is... it is kinda too late to go home haha. if i reach home... i will juz end up surfing net and watch tv and go to slp. which i can do in the office oso.

but recently i seldom go online at nite cos got too much things to do lol. first was i managed to finish "Lost". the ch 5 thriller drama or watever u call it that is showing every thursday. the show damn nice. and i think i shldnt say much or i will reveal alot of spoilers haha. but to conclude the show is super nice! i eagerly waiting for season 2 (oops)

after watching fin lost which i spend a few late nites.... i starting watch Yakitate japan... an anime la... damn funny... abt making bread one... imagine one can draw a manga on making bread -_-. it is super lame and most of time my colleagues will scold me for acting like a mad man laughing myself. this took a few nites.

after this i got a series of comic that i borrowed from a comic rental shop. the comic is called "long fei bu bai". up to u all to figure out how to read it. anyway it is also another super lame comic that makes me laugh all alone in office again. and pple will once again scold me haha. this oso took a few nites haha.

for last week. i juz modded my xbox. this one power. i effectively made the all the xbox gang play every nite until 2 plus am before we go to slp haha. though we got quite a few games but we always end up playing winning eleven. one game worth mentioning though is fatal frame 2. think this game hor.. play alone in a dark room can really freak the player out. but as we play in a whole big grp, we juz cant stop laughing at some of the "scary" scenes haha.

ya tts all for today haha. got chance i will blog again. but ya.. life qutie shiok now lol. dun be jealous =P esp those having o lvl... or those starting uni soon.. or those simply not staff officer and have to chiong sua. =X

Another Halfday hehe

2005-07-05T12:35:00.000+08:00

Seems like life is rather kind on me haha. today is the army commanders' forum at the Singapore Indoor Stadium and from BMTC, all regulars 3SG and above are to be present haha. so that effectively take away all the high ranking decisions makers and that def include my boss.

so end up asking for a half day off and it was granted for the entire branch haha. heng.

yesterday i starting playin this RPG Star Wars Knights of the Old Republic 2 The sith lord i.e kotOR2

quite fun. kinda hook on to the game lol. den i oso realise now that i got something to play and focus one, my mind dun end up thinking of all the troubles i have. so suddenly life become so much happier and easier lol. anyway ya i trying very hard to enter the Dark side haha. reply questions super rude... den kill pple for no reason plus eh being unreasonable and cunning and evil etc etc haha. i am a fallen Jedi!

(seriously it is difficult to be a true bad guy haha. cos u kinda realise most of time u gotta be polite humble and easy going to be able to get information and to be able to have pple help u out. going to the dark side more often than not it juz means going against all odds by urself. cos ya u got no friends, u trust no one and ya juz plain evil. of cos the good thing is the dark side is damn strong haha.

ok thats all for today

Half day Off

2005-07-01T15:30:00.000+08:00

haha today supposed to have a halfday off but ya in the end due to me and my colleagues love for the nation and the SAF and our commitment to our boss, we are still here in the office. kao SAF really quite heng to have pple like us serving the NS... got off oso dun wanna take.

Recently dun have the drive/urge to type those chim chim stuffs haha... its more easy to blog this kind of junk and ya everyday events juz to keep track of whats happening.

Was thinking whether i shld go mod my xbox... expensive xia... mod already then confirm will end up buying alot of pirated games and spend countless hours and sleepless nites chionging the xbox. zzz... knowing that it is confirm going to be destructive to my life, i am still considering modding it haha... humans relly weird... hard to fight against temptation lol esp this kind where is involves having fun and wasting time with your frens playing games together.

oso realise my laptop has been underused by me and overused by others instead lol. like not my laptop lydat haha. was thinking of buying a game and start to utilize my laptop liao haha. if not heart pain la... waste my money lydat...buy laptop nv use... but looking on the bright side, i brought convenience and entertainment to my frens whu uses them almost every nite lol. not bad for improving relationships with my frens haha...

eh ya tonite gonna have my FTT. haven study yet lol... but still thinks it is going to be idiot proof. so many sporeans pass lor... including all those auntie uncles whu nv study much... so i am guessing that it shldnt be that hard to fail lol. hopefully.

k gonna book out liao... have to end here...

SAF Day

2005-07-01T09:32:00.000+08:00

1st July. Another year has passed since i last attended a parade for SAF Day. But this time round more shiok cos i am attending as an officer lol. super relac and no need to rehearse much. also no need to stand in the parade for half an hour juz for rehearsing some simple commands.

kk actually i think it has been a very long time since i last posted so tot of writing this down. took a v long break recently. break as in somehow i nv focus much on all the aims and goals i have. instead i was slacking and pursuing my interests (which is also wastign time like watching movie anime and vcd). now feel so much more recharged and i think i gotta get back on track soon or i will pretty soon lose my drive haha. wait become too lazy to work den jialat le

also recently i have learnt alot on how to control my emotions. i was faced with one of my toughest weakness (of cos i am not going to say la) and so ya i am forced to cope with it. anyway ya i do hope i am a better person now lol

k thats all.

A Most Misunderstood Ingredient

2005-06-22T23:17:00.000+08:00

I read this in a book "Top Performance" by Zig Ziglar.

If you are going to be a consistent top performer, it is important that u understand what happiness really is. many people maintain they will be happy "when" --- they win the trip to Hawaii, New York, or Bermuda. Many people say that they will be happy when they get the new house, but they wont. they will be happy when the landscaping is completed, but they wont. then they will be happy when the new draperies are up but thats not true either. then they will be happy when the mortage is paid off but again they are wrong. they will be happy when they have added the new room to the hse but thats not true. then they will be happy when they build that little place out on the lake but again, it simply is not so.

Happiness is not a when --- it is a NOW!. it is not what you have that makes u happy, it is wat u are that is going to make u happy! material things are never going to make us happy. Adam and Eve had the whole world. God gave them everything and authority over it with the exception of one tree.he carefully instructed them not to eat the fruit of that tree. with all the material possesions thy had, what was the one thing they wanted? u guessed it : the fruit of that tree.

Naruto and Gundam Seed

2005-06-19T22:15:00.000+08:00

This weekend seems a very long one for me... much things happened this week and it really feels like a very long time has passed. suddenly feel so much older lol. really hor too much stress is no good.

anyway good news is i finally quited Dota-ing so suddenly i feel like i got so much time to spare haha. can slp until song.. surf net until song den still can chat online plus watch anime den look for songs etc... compared to the last time when i juz Dota all the way from 1pm till 11pm... zzz freakin no life xia

today bought a new book... by Dale Carnegie.. "How to stop worrying and start living" its kinda like a book for one to be more optimistic about life... so why do i buy it (in case the reader dunno i am a self proclaim optimist lol)... cos when i was flipping thru the book i actually saw some lines that coincide with my beliefs as well.. den i was like so happy haha so i decide to buy the book and see how much of the optmist beliefs i oready holding on to it. those that i have yet to learn i shall try to remember and apply it in my life so that i can internalised it one day

oh ya about naruto and gundam... these 2 shows are v meaningful xia... super thought provoking and it really affects how i look at things and how i behave. of cos in a positive way la haha. everyone if got chance should at least give the anime a try. confirm will learn something one.

lastly ya... must type something inspiring or rather something to think thru.

Over 300 years ago Galileo said:

"You cannot teach a man anything; you can only help him to find it within himself."

Value of a Smile

2005-06-16T23:13:00.000+08:00

It costs nothing, but creates much.

It enriches those who recieves, without improvishing those who give.

It happens in a flash but the memory of it sometimes last forever.

None are so rich they can get along without it, and none so poor but are richer for its benefits.

It creates happiness in the home, foster good will in a business, and is the countersign of friends.

It is rest to the weary, daylight to the discouraged, sunshine to the sad, and Nature's best antidote for trouble.

Yet it cannot be bought, begged, borrowed, or stolen, for it is something that is no earthly to anybody till it is given away.

And if in the last minute rush of Christmas buying some of our salespeople should be too tired to give you a smile,may we ask you to leave one of yours?

For nobody needs a smile so much as those who have none left to give.

Revamped

2005-06-16T21:29:00.000+08:00

Phew took me like 2-3 hrs to touch up the blog. finally got the drive and oso the time to do up the blog. Think once it is up maintaining would be much easier. Recently read alot of blogs den realise most pple like to use blog to maybe talk about their downs in life. it is really good in a sense that pple have a channel to say out their thoughts and hopefully will feel better this way. most pple get more and more pessimistic and depressed are usually the ones whu has problems but kept everything to themselves. den the more depressed they feel the more they do not want to approach others and end up being more depressed. I have learnt that our brains work in such a way that it is either thinking of solution or it is creating more problems. so sadly, these people will end up thinking more and more problems for themselves and hence stuck in a vicious cycle. what i think is that they really gotta pray for someone in their life who will help them out of the cycle.

Anyway so when i was thinking what to put in my blog, i thought that i shld inspire. i am very lucky that i somehow able to have a very positive mental attitude and also esp after i joined the army, i began to learn to look at things in a very optimistic way (in army really gotta noe this if not life is very very tough not physically but mentaly). so i hope pple who read my blog and brighten up abit

and ya be grateful that u get to experience hardships and your downs in life. to me pple who had been thru the worse are the ones who are stronger and think more. to many pple, those whu thought of suiciding are silly pple... but to me those whu overcame the tot of suiciding at the most critical moment are the ones who really able to look at life so differently from many many others. remember that a sailor who has never met a storm is in a far more dangerous position than one who has overcomed countless storms and had survived.

So try it as a chance to grow and never give up. Live strong and live positive. Do not give up and just die in the storm.

Twenty-five Centuries Ago

2005-06-16T10:44:00.000+08:00

"The reason why rivers and seas receive the homage of a hundred mountain streams is that they keep below them. thus they are able to reign over all the mountain streams. so the sage, wishing to be above men, putteth himself below them; wishing to be before them, he putteth himself behind them. thus, though his place be above men, they do not feel his weight; though his place be before them, they do not count it an injury."

Lao-tse

Meaningful Weekend

2005-06-12T01:59:00.000+08:00

this wkend abit v busy... so cant really blog... having a course from 9am till 11pm? for 3 days fri to sun... v shag.... but v meaningful... learning quite abit of stuffs... maybe blog what i have went thru on monday

anyway recently got this fren of mine... she always gives me a very active and hyper and positive impression/image. but nv can i imagine that she is actually going thru much negative stuffs behind the happy image that she displays... (blog is v good in this sense)... of cos i am not going to reveal anything further... but more to tell her (if u are reading) that it is normal to have some down and difficult times... and ya in some ways we shld be glad we are having a tough time. cos it is when we get out of the tough times den we will grow and learn more about ourselves... a smooth sailing ride nv provide any learning value to a sailor... a sailor who went thru a storm is the one whu has more confidence the next time round.. but of cos dun let urself die in the storm... dun gib up... jia you...

Badminton 10pm Tekong

2005-06-08T23:45:00.000+08:00

jus fin playing badminton at the MPH. abit too enthu le lol... its oready like close to midnite liao. but v fun xia. used to play badminton when i was pri 5 till like sec 3. its like my fav sport plus one that i think i am pretty good at. but seems liek soccer and basketball is more popular. sad xia.

whenever i play badminton it really reminds me of my childhood. i dunno abt others but i believe i had quite a fun childhood compared to many other typical sporean.

first of all my parents dun really expect me to do very well in studies hence since young i do not have any pressure in my studies. den as my parents grew up in kampong, they dun really mind their kids run around in neighbourhood in the evening to play etc. i dun usually stay at home in the evening one. i spend almost every evening at my void deck or at the hdb area playing with other kids.

police and thieve, blind cat and juz plain catching. come to think of it i had v healthy childhood lol. all involves much running and activity. maybe thats why i am slightly more towards the agile and active side.

actually the main activity that brought the whole neighbourhood kids together is badminton. there is this uncle who feng yu bu gai... every evening 5pm will set up the 2 public badminton courts and provides rackets and shuttlecocks for the kids to play. and of cos it is free of charge one. it juz meant to entertain the kids. of cos there are regulars adults whu play as well. so it was like a huge badminton community.

i started from not knowing how to play to slowly joining in to learning from the many players whu regularly comes down to play. it is really very memorable. even when i was in Anderson Sec, i still make an attempt to go down every day 5pm to play wif them... even if i were to be in my sch uniform.

all these are my childhood frens.. even till now i still cant 4get them.

sad to say, we stopped playing at around sec 4... that is when the very friendly uncle passed away due to heart attack... the whole neighbourhood and the kids were very sad to lose him.

since then... there is no one to regularly set up the nets... no one to provide the shuttlecock and the rackets... and subsequently the gang starts to disperse... and eventually til today when we now lead our separate lives. ITE Poly... army... some even working le...

it is all so clear in my mind.. something i will nv forget in my life...

lastly... to the uncle (i dunno his name even till now)... i guess the entire gang will nv 4get u in my life... if possible i will contribute like what u did to the neighbourhood just like wat i did... bringing so much fond memories to the kids...

Sam

New Skin!

2005-06-07T23:29:00.000+08:00

Yeah... dunno spent how long to do up this skin. killer xia.. look at all the script see until blur...

v thanks to YONgX~ without u i confirm wun even bother changing the blogskin hehe... now at least the blog looks more cool and different... not the mundane and boring skin.

so happy now.

and ya spending time doing all these is better den playing dota lol and yes... i nv play dota for the past 2 days le haha... achievement xia

Sam

Indonesia General Visit

2005-06-07T20:01:00.000+08:00

ok i seriously got nuting much to blog about my life if i dun tok about my work haha. i spend almost all my time in the office and my life really revolves around the job i am holding on to. so haha... pardon me... i can onli think of bitching abt the work i have here in tekong haha

eh this thurday BMTC gotta have an Indonesian Major General coming over to visit. sian one... me kena must organise this event. but i think my boss more stress haha. me assist him also v xiong le. seriously army damn wayang one... not that i am on the admin side and management level... alot of things i see are what pple on the ground wun see. so many things is stage one lor... juz for show onli. like wat recruits have and what kind of trainign they receive... all v fake one... alot is much better than what is really happening on the ground...

den so many things gotta rehearse first... den it really makes me wonder if i one day ever become a boss of a big company den when i reveal that intend to visit certain department or something... will the things i am seeing be the exact things that is happening in reality when i am not around?

so conclusion.. next time wanna visit anywhere esp when i am those high ranking kind.. just do spot checks/visits haha... den will get to see the real thing and not something pple stage up one.

k done...

Sam

LoL Pple do Read my Blog -_-|||

2005-06-06T23:40:00.000+08:00

wah scary haha.. after my dota post den suddenlly got pple tag liao... haha... but at least now got more motivation to blog.

one thing about blogging is it is sometime quite routine... or shld i say is a commitment? den if u do not enjoy blogging it really becomes a chore. so how to enjoy blogging? i figured out that first u must noe that there are frens reading ur blog haha. i mean really ma... a the start when i blog i feel really dumb lol.. plus i oso dunno much about the html stuff.. den i can onli use the v basic template etc. dunno how to make those nice nice blog. so abit sian. den heng got fren help me set up the tag board. if not i dun even have a tag board lol. my template now is still the v basic one haha... zzz.... quite loser

den after u noe pple do read... den next will be ur most current group of clique gotta be into it oso la... it really gives some extra drive... like my current clique now... fucking hell no one blogs -_- sad case... so thats why i no motivationt o blog so cant blame me ma haha...

anyway see la hor... it is actually quite fun to blog... can voice sometihings in my mind out to let pple noe... den can bitch about stupid things haha.. den most imp i can propagate my Beliefs to pple haha... like it or not i gotta self proclaim i am a Optimist lol... i choose to be one ma lol...

kk la... type v long le haha...reader oso got limited focus span lol.. thanks for reading if anyone reads until here lol.. and ya i gotta start going around reading others blog liao... lol

**update... i successfully avoided dota today lol... pls pray hard for me in my quest to quit dota lol... arghhhh

Dota

2005-06-04T22:28:00.000+08:00

Now my life mostly revolves around dota. actually everyone whu plays the game noes that it is something not contructive and juz waste time to play. but there is certain level of satisfaction after every game.

maybe it is juz cos guys play against each other and then the competitive nature of the guys make them want to chiong the game. play more and more often to juz brush up their skills so that the next time when the group of frens gather to play again, he can impress the others with his 'skills'

but seriously so wat if u are the best dota player around... sigh nutting really. what do we gain as dota players? haha lack of slp... plus unhealthy life style(sit in front of com), plus eyes damn tired and also back and neck ache... killer xia

now i am using most of my free time playing dota... it is v addictive.. den nv bother to do other stuffs... think my life is in a mess now haha.. cmi... must start to control xia...

Writing of IFC Manual

2005-06-02T17:15:00.000+08:00

Finally todat i have some time to myself.for the past 1 weeks my schedule was packed like crazy with my to do list in a nver ending state. it is scary man. i can feel the stress as an admin officer. heng i managed to survive the killer weeks and today i am a happy man. finishing most of my stuffs le and i finally have time to start doing up the Individual Fieldcraft Manual.

Ok maybe only those guys in NS will understand whats IFC. anyway i am sure most guys knows what is rifle platoon manual. it is a manual that teaches u everything that is related to a rifle platoon e.g how to function as a platoon and how to carry out platoon drills.

BMTC has recently been tasked to come up wif the IFC manual. zzz den i training branch project officer... suay suay oso kena lor. now i have to come up wif this manual thingy. can u imagine for the next duno how many donkey years, all the soldiers will be reading this manual that i have used to be involved in making. of cos i am not the onli one writing the manual. i am coming up wif a few chapters of the entire manual zzz. sai kang xia.

today 4th day in camp le. haven book out yet. abit sian but endure man. tml is friday~

A Long Break

2005-06-01T18:31:00.000+08:00

A very long break from blogging. Had no access to the internet for more than a week makes me realise how internet has become part of my life. it is something that is a must have or i feel like something is not there.

one of the most impactful effects was i dont get to play online games. it is hell of a torture. next is i kinda shut off from the outside world like latest gadgets and news. v jialat xia. den wanna noe which movie available oso got problem. and ya no msn. it is really wierd without msn and sort of like lost communications with my frens.

i onli gained back my internet access recently but already lost the mood to blog liao haha. it is really a chore. but today kena stirred by a fren and i have decided to put in more passion in blogging. maybe i shld focus more on quantity of posts rather than quality first haha. like maybe whenever i free i will post something than to post once a day or 2 days. cos the latter i feel that i will lose the drive easier.

anyway tts all.

Tiring Morning

2005-05-15T07:54:00.000+08:00

zzz kao juz got home from my frens home. bathe liao den now about to leave home again to go and learn driving. shag xia. brain oso cant think properly liao. hope later dun bang into some other cars or something -_-

Cheers

2005-05-12T15:56:00.000+08:00

For the first time i feel that got someone who actually read my blog lol. guess i shall be more optimistic from now on.

recently sort out a lot of thoughts in my mind. it feels just like what u always see in those wu xia drama where some masters go hide in the forest and bi guan xiu lian. spend quite alot of time with myself and i felt alot better. it seems like i have suddenly think thru so many things that i usually do not really bother too much about.

i am feeling much sharper than before and ya i feel that i shall not be affected by pessimistic remarks around me. i shld be the one who inspire and influnce others around me.

anyway after reading yong cong's blog, i really wanna go Las Vegas after i ORD for my sky diving. if not bungee jump oso can. arghh.

Sam

Why dont look at life in a Brighter Light?

2005-05-10T20:28:00.000+08:00

Realise that a number of frens around me are rather pessimistic. Recently has the habit of asking people about their dreams (if any) their goals (if any). It turned out that many do not know what they want and what they are working towards. sigh~

to me it is very important to know what u want in life and not juz wait for things to happen. everything u do gotta have a purpose if not time will be wasted. unless u are telling me u juz want to lead a happy go lucky life and enjoy ur days. even that is an aim. to me if u set that as an aim... i.e to lead a simple and enjoyable and stressless life den at least ur goals are defined and u are working towards it. what i do not like is those who cant seem to come up with any reason then end up telling me they juz wanna enjoy their teenagehood. in this case it is more like an excuse.

anyway everyone has different ways of looking at things and there might be pple whu thinks that one shld take things one at a time and not expecting too far or too much. ok. i am fine with that but how strong can that stand? i mean it is so generally known that one need to have a goal in life. with an aim, upon achieving it will bring great joy and sense of achievemen and confidence. conversely, if u do not have an aim, u will have nothing to look forward to and of cos nothing to achieve... so how do u achieve happines? by slacking and relaxing all day?

tts juz my 2 cents so ya no body bothers anyway

Sam

No more Internet Connection

2005-05-09T19:01:00.000+08:00

Damn, thsi is like the worse thing that can happen to a teenager la. My dad refuse to pay for the bills and end up my internet gone le. now i can onli go online thru the com in my office. sad case xia. even playing utopia i have problems. weekend cant play. cant read my fav news on gaming during weekend. cant dl songs and anime and movie. wat the....

Sam

Awaken

2005-05-05T19:19:00.000+08:00

Suddenly,

I juz realise how shallow my writing is when i saw some of my other frens blog. guess i am not the v chim kind of person. even if i do think alot about life and alot about how to look at life and my principles of life etc. i nv seem to be able to write them out. its juz sumthing within me that i discuss and debate within myself.

Recently i went through a v tough process of self discovery. i am forced to make decisions. forced to make myself know what i really want in life and how am i going to go about living my teenage life. I have discovered that beign an optimist really helps alot when i am stuck deep in this kind of shit.

Choice. do we really have choice over things that happen in our lives? i truly believe that when a situation occurs to us, our response will determine the outcome. the situation is nv the determining factor. we cant choose what kind of situation will happen to us but we CAN CHOOSE what kind of response we wanna have. so what if i have fucked myself up in this big project? it has oready happened. even if i complain or blame anyone or myself will nv change the fact that it oready happened. i can feel miserable, sad, demoralised and if u realise its really juz a chain reaction. so now i choose to face it positively. learn from this painful exprience. be gladful that it happened and i get to learn from the mistake and vow that i will nv do such silly mistake again. and from there i will feel more confident than ever.

juz yesterday, my bro asked me does reading self help books help at all in improving urself. i noe many will that if all those self helped book really helps, everyone would have oready become millionaire, or become great salesman or great womaniser. do u think that way? have u read one b4? do you think the contents are fake? or juz that u are the one whu is not making use of the things written in the book. many failed to understand that these books, are really what we call "self help". pls help urself by making some actions. dun expect to juz read the book and miraculously juz by knowing some new stuffs you suddenly become a v good person.

i once come across this msg and i truly believe in it. in life, everything we do we will first "hear/read/see it" which is essentially getting to know about something u nv knew. followed by "understand it", "do it" and lastly "get it". what it really means is that to really learn something, we first have to of cos know it thru reading or hearing from someone esle or seeing it urself. the next stage would be understanding it. i am sure all of us now the difference between knowing and understanding. next one must really do it before he obtain the skill/knowledge. the 4 steps are essentially the basic stages one will go thru to obtain any skills or knowledge.

so all thse self help books essentially provides the stage one of learning which is for us to know such practices or such way of looking at things do exist in first place. we have live too few years to know that much and all these books are the hard work of people whu wrote it with their experience and passion. without going thru another 30 yrs, we have oready get to noe such experience and its really up to us to carry it over to stage 2 which is to understand it and to do it and finally to get it.

so if u are one whu dun believe in such books because u have tried reading one and tried following it yet has no results den i would very much agree that maybe to u it doesnt woke and i have no issues about that.

but in this world, it is juz so common that there are people whu has not try it and yet critising this and that and saying that it wouldnt work etc. the worse is they think they have seen everything and that skills must be learning thru their own experience and what they go thru in their life. to me... they have shut themselves of a veryg ood learning experience. i will not feel angry towards them... rather i will pity them that they are not possible to see things in a more open and objective way and when pple try to expl to them and they refuse to listen and juz kept to their stand.

Anyway one thing that i believe also is that thsi world there is always a balance. good and evil, fast and slow, police and thief, boss and employees. we need pple of all sorts to make this world complete. without people who are willing to be employees, there wouldnt be employers/bosses. similarly if everyone wants to be boss, who is there to be follower? and without people who are not as good as studies, there wouldnt be people whu are good in studies as when we talk about being good or not in studies, essentially we are juz comparing are we better in studies than the majority. are u better than ur classmates? are u then better than the better ones from other classes? are u better than the better ones from other schools? getting a 90 marks for a test is pointless when the majority gets 99 for a test. everything in this world is relative. so instead of outcasting others, accept everyone instead for their strengths and weaknesses. this world isnt perfect. more importantly u decide ur day, ur mood, ur actions and ur life... not anyone else.

Sam
Awaken

Top Performance

2005-05-05T09:52:00.000+08:00

"We are free up to the point of choice, then the choice controls the chooser." Mary Crowley

What a fantastic day. ya think i sound abit abnormal haha. this morning i started reading this book by Zig Ziglar "Top Performance" and it made an impact on me xia. It is generally about how to develop excellence in yourself and others and also to maximis potential beyong your best.

About the author.

Zig Ziglar is the author of the international bestsellers Zig Ziglar's Secrets of Closing the Sale and See You at the Top. He has been featured in The Washington Post and The New York Times and has been appeared on The Today Show, 60 Minutes, The Donahue Show, and 20/20 (all these are programs in US)

An internationally known authority on high level performance, he has spoken at thouands of motivational seminars across the country. His I CAN course is taught in more than 3000 schools and hundreds of companies use his books, tapes, films, and video to train their employees. He is recognised as one of the most dynamic speakers in America and has appeared on the same platform with such outstanding personalities as President Ronald Reagan, Dr Norman Vincent Peale, Art Linkletter, and Dr Robert Schuller.

Basically its one an extract from the book. guess i will share some of the things that i learned from the book from time to time.

Regards
Sam

Tuesday

2005-05-03T17:34:00.000+08:00

Dear Sam,

liew today really kinda stone. work for a few hours settling some template. as boss is not around, the pressure really iznt there. tml taking leave to go renew my PR thingy. so effectively this is a 3 day working wk for me hehe. Ya today start reading this book flirting 101. haha kinda lame to read this kind of book but, it does help to give an insight to it. cos i not pro in this ma den not like there are pple to teach me this kind of things haha. so gotta read up myself lor. cant imagine if i am able to put what i have learnt into practical use haha. so any gals up for the try? lol

Regards
Yong Zhi

Hectic but Fun Weekend

2005-05-02T00:01:00.000+08:00

Dear Sam,

What a weekend you had. Its hectic and back to back but its fun and meaningful. Had a great time. Esp today the whole clique went sentosa and chilled out together. though its kinda waste time as we nv really do anything except lying on the beach most of the time. Must really admit that going the beach at noon time is a bad idea as the sand is damn too hot to play soccer barefoot.so end up all of us observe chio bu more then anything else. Then we went to town to eat sushi teh. not that bad. good food esp the eel. killer. really like jap food alot. next time got chance i shall go eat jap food again. Partyworld is quite a nice ktv. rather cheap leh. from 8 to 11pm it cost us 19 bucks wif drinks and some snacks. and the most shiok thing is we got a vip room. killer big. maybe i juz too sua ku but its really a huge room. so big until we rather have a smaller room cos its not cosy enuf. had a great time singing until i totally no voice liao. now typing oso can feel the pain in the throat. hopefully when i wake up tml it will be more or less ok liao.

Good nite

Regards
Sam

The Long Awaited

2005-04-29T14:51:00.000+08:00

Dear All,

kinda shocked when i realised it has been so long from my last input hehe. on one hand i can say that i am rather busy but of cos i think thats not a good enuf reason for not updating my blog zzz. in fact every day in office i am actually able to fork out that bit of time to write blog one juz that i am lazy to do it. the computer is juz like steps away from my working place haha. den within the office i got like 2 computers that can connect to the internet so i oso cant complain that i do not have access to the computer due to sharing wif alot pple.

today my BMTC Sch 2 Dy MPO dear wei huang came over to my office and tok cock wif me. its such an irony. we are like on tekong together den most of time oso staying in yet we seldom meet up wif each other to chat or eat or juz gather around. life kinda sad huh haha. anyway think recently really lead quite a new life. day in and day out my life revolves around my HQ people and also my movement wise oso restricted to my office block and of cos the jetty and the bus and my home. tts bascially how i spend my wkdays.

guess can sort of let you all noe hows a typical day like for me. lets juz say its monday early morning when i report to camp via home. wake up at 6.30pm den leave home at round 7pm. den my dad will drive my Bro to victoria school den followed by driving me to tekong ferry terminal. after which i will take the 7.45am fast craft and reach tekong at 8am lydat den i take a 2 min walk tata my office liao. den change into no. 4 den work whole day. most of time i am stoning listening music den read magazine and chit chat wif my colleagues. suddenly its oready close to lunch time den everyone starts to slack even more and wait for lunch time. 11.30pm. lunch time ends at 1.30pm so thats when pple start to work again but i think all of us will agree that when but from lunch the effeciency will be rather low and will onli slowly pick up. so when u are really 'there' as in the mood to work i will realise that its oready close to 3.30pm. den my branch will start to think about abt our evening run which starts at 4.30pm. sometimes we go for runs and sometimes we go for soccer and the purpose is to keep fit. staff job ma. v unhealthy one and i noe all of u all oso noe that. after we finish the exercise it shld be around 6pm den we will come back office and bathe and slack abit more den go eat le. after dinner den will come back office again den will either play xbox (winning eleven) or watch dvd (band of brothers) or go swim or wathc tv in our "tv room" or surf net haha. kind spoiled for choice (PS. wei huang, if u are reading this now u noe why i nv go look for u at nite liao haha.) den when its somewhere past midnite, we finally prepare to slp in the office hehe. den next morning will juz wake up and tata its another day. btw pls dun think that there is a nice comfy bed for me to slp in the office. i sometimes slp on the floor wif sleepign bad or i will slp on a sofa or i will sleep on some make shift mattress.

recently my life has quite a big change. to be specific 3 weeks ago i attended a life changing course. learnt alot from that course and i oso learnt to see things v differently. it really made a v big impact in my life. this is the 2nd time i experience this kind of feeling. the first is my JCC.. which is jungle confidence course. it is oso a life changing one and i believe alot of other pple/officers will agree wif me. or shld i say the entire officer cadet course is life changing. i think i wun be whu i am today if i nv go thru OCS. so i can consider myself v lucky to have gone thru OCS during my NS. as for the course i attended 3 wks ago, it too has a similar effect and i am so glad i got to attend the course by chance.

certain characters in me has changed quite abit and i think i have chanegd for the better.. or at least hopefully so. guess this those whu noe me before and compared to now me would be rather not used to it haha. imagine when u see me in uni? haha... i am not sure...

anyway ok la.. tts all... this is kinda like a long post. anwyway i was thinking from next input onwards i shld write a brand new style... maybe like in a letter form plus its like writing a letter to myself. hopefully can give myself a v unqiue experience. try something out of the box ma

Regards
2LT Sam
Project Officer
Head Training Branch
HQ BMTC
SAF
Sinagpore

Life Back to Normal

2005-03-09T15:28:00.000+08:00

Seems like it has been quite a while since my last post. tt goes to show how busy last week was. bth. total killer and stressful oso. heng now life back to normal. when life is back to normal is damn shiok. get to slack, can go swim in the afernoon, den can read magazine and newspaper, den can learn wei qi from my fren in the office whu is super pro and of cos most importantly i get to go home on time. been practising golf for the past few days and start to get hang of it. hoping to go onto the golf course and play soon.

besides my busy office life, these few days/weekends i watched lots of vcd. gundam seed, gundam seed destiny, date with vampire 3, and one weiqi anime, now watching full metal panic... realised tt its a v good way to kill time and rot at home hehe. and indirectly saved lots of money cos nv go out.

anyway jus hope that life remains lydat and dun get too busy den i happy liao haha

Busy Day

2005-02-24T18:26:00.000+08:00

Man, my life kinda get pretty packed nowadays. Cant imagine i dont even have time to slack much in the day. recently gonna have quite a few meetings coming up and my to do list is getting longer and longer. i can begin my day with maybe 5 things to do and end of day i will have 7 things. and tts of cos after i have clear some of my initial 5 tasks.

one thing though that i felt damn good is i finish the entire series of Gundam Seed. Damn nice and addictive. spent 3 long nites to fin chionging fin the anime. anyone who is hesitating to buy Gundam seed or not... dun think liao juz go buy. is worth ur every cent hehe. (PS i borrowed from my fren though haha) but after watching the show, i learnt alot... its a chim show btw... and alot pple may think it is those robot den alot action kind den for kids... u are so wrong man. cartoon and anime one of the main difference is there are lots of adults watching anime and why? behind any anime, the author always base their story on some values they believe in. it is very meaningful if u are able to grasp wat the author is trying to deliver. for gundam seed, the plot rulez. mainly it tackles the issues on war and why have war and why soldiers fight war. is war really neccessary? how to end a war? until one side gets annihilated? or both sides give in? shld one fight to defend and protect or to seek revenge. and ya its a super long list. so overall the show is really nice and i doubt a kid can understand. so anyone out there whu still thinks anime are for kids, i think u urself shld try watching one like Naruto or maybe one piece hehe.

Busy Week

2005-02-18T17:47:00.000+08:00

This week is quite a killer. 8am to 5pm job literally turned out to be 8am to 5pm plus. almost every moment i got some stuffs to do except during my meals zzz. quite sad. den past few nites (mon to thurs) i had been watching dvd. 8.30pm is the "movie screening" timing in the staff lounge and my colleage in logistics branch has the key in hehe. so we have the whole room to our selves. got few sofa and dunno how many inch big tv. gonna bring xbox in soon hehe. watched big fish, meet the fockers, kung fu hustle, alexander. in the end my conclusion is that watching dvd is the best way to waste ones nite off lol. time passes damn fast den next moment its 10 plus 11 plus le ready to go slp. tts also why nites i nv come online to blog hehe. hopefully next week gonna be a better week.

Beware of Saving Msn Settings on Public Com

2005-02-08T22:33:00.000+08:00

Oh ya forgotten to blog this. this incident happend on monday which is yesterday la. after one whole day of no work and absolute boredom, i was waiting for the time to knock off. den suddenly when i was soundly asleep in the office, my fren called me and almost yelled at me lol. he super furious about some unknown guy sms his gf and asking stupid qn or rather sick qn. zzz. den i tot wtf happened and wat does it gotta do wif me. it turned out that this guy used my msn account... chat wif this his gf who is also my fren. den ask her for phone no. after some casual chatting. den he started sms her. peng xia. den first thing that come to my mind is whether this guy disturbed how many other pple zzz. initially i have no idea how he use my msn and i v worried he juz somehow managed to get my password so first thing i do is go change my msn password. but eventually when i went to the officer mess in the evening, i realise that one of the com the default setting is my msn. i saved my settings the last time i used the com w/o knowing it. luckily i managed to locate the source... at least i noe the guy didnt get into my msn cos he knew my password. learnt a painful lesson today about using msn on public com. from now on, i have a new habit of double checking whether my account is not saved as default when i leaving. hmm wat a day lol... strange experience... so like a saying that i believe "learn from your mistakes... and its even better to learn from other pple's mistakes" hehe

Chinese New Year Eve!

2005-02-08T22:19:00.001+08:00

Woot~ times flies and it is already one yr since the last CNY liao. one thing that strike me the most today is that i am not a recruit! haha. remember that last yr i juz enlisted and was able to book out due to CNY. this time round i am in Tekong again but as perm staff haha. the feeling is totally diff. in tekong today, they have this lion dance thingy and den followed by buffet breakfast for the HQ pple. sad thing is everyone is juz thinking abt booking out lol.

today there is no work and yesterday i also did nutting haha. pretty "not so interesting" life. for the entire day yesterday, i onli helped to draft out the training schedule for the next IPC (ya the instructor prep course that i attended when i came to tekong) feels weird that now i am the one planning lol. anyway its quite a simple task. basically take the last batch ipc den shift the diff period slot. now i noe when someone attend a course, if the time table is screw up i.e one moment u had a lesson in lets say classroom 1. den next lesson in some auditorium den next lesson classroom 1 again... most prob the person planning didnt plan properly haha. if everyone oso like me so thoughful (haha =P) plan everything so incely for the sake of the trainee den this world would be great lol. and ya yes biqing u are attending the course if u are reading this lol. i make sure u suffer! lol 5BX everyday lalala.

afternoon nv do anything much. slelpt most of the time. den wanted to read my book (dan brown angels and demons) but CNY... not good to du2 shu1... scare bad luck so force myself not to read even though i am really bored haha.

this CNY eve is a rather simple one for my family. no gambling etc... onli a dinner wif my own family haha. not happening at all. den watch tv all the way. tml CNY liao so looking forward to it. hopefully can get lots of ang bao money! lol

First Attempt

2005-02-06T22:34:00.000+08:00

today is the first sunday of the month and foxtrot wing comd actually sent out email and asked the old foxtrot pple to join in the run. i went hoping to see alot of pple and end up onli 6 including me were present. Me licheng ernest jiun bing keny and boon hong. nevertheless we have our run and wing comd treated us roti plata hehe. its along thomson road and its called "the prata house" if i am not wrong. the prata is damn good so got chance gotta bring frens there. it feels good to meet up and tok about wat happened in their new units. but meet up too often oso sian so monthly is juz nice. hopefully next month will have more pple. and by tt time i believe everyone will have lots to share.

at nite, i bugged my dad to bring me to golf driving range and teach me golf. at first i am kinda scare of malu myself cos i really new to it. however it turned out that no one is bothered abt how i play lol. they like juz practise their own. i was rather relieved and thus can learn from my dad without worry. i spent like 2 hrs there and initially i really cant hit anything. in fact onli the last 20 plus balls i managed to hit decently. all the earlier shots juz go harewire or juz simply cant 'fly' and hit straight in front into the range like maybe 10 metres? lol i realised its really a v difficult sports especially the picking up part. one has to coordinate so many parts of his body in order to make juz a simple shot. like must take note of back swing, legs bend a bit. body lean forward slightly, eyes on ball etc etc all in juz one movement. all these required great concentration unless ur body already acustomed to it. and even if i managed to hit a shot, the next shot may juz fail again. one has to be very consistent to play golf well. sigh~ wat a difficult sports. but one thing is whenever i hit a succesful shot, it feels damn good and i juz wanna keep trying to improve my skill. i cant wait to be able to hit 100% and hit generally to where i wan. sad to say it would take some time before tt can happen T_T anyway i oready asked my dad to bring me to driving range during this coming CNY break daily so that i can practised and learn faster hehe. making one week later i can go on to the golf course and play the 18 holes liao hehe

tml gonna be my first day of work as dy s3 so i am pretty excited. hopefully it is going to be an interesting job as i wanna learn as much as possible in my NS life. dun waste it away ma. gonnna slp le... finally fin my blog...

Last Day of Course

2005-02-05T01:03:00.000+08:00

finally today is the last day of the instructor prep course phase 1. the whole thing is supposed to be 3 weeks but due to the v low strength of only 6 officers posted, we gonna wait for the next intake of specialists and join them in their course. so for now my jockey cap dun even have the bmtc badge!

anyway today is also the day when we finally got our posting. i turned out to be the HQ BMTC training project officer. eh in the army context is is better known as dy S3. guess its 8-5pm for me from now on mon to friday hehe. and ya gonna be in air con room most of the time? haha slack life. my superior the head training, major effendi seems to be a v nice guy and really hoped to learn much from him. v green to this kind of staff job and from what i noe i will be learning quite abit of office tasks and maybe attended some outside courses paid by SAF of cos hehe. so far things look pretty good but one thing v sad is that i wun get to command a platoon of men anymore though tts what i am supposed to be trained for. i even thought and came up with my training philosophy and how to handle my platoon etc b4 i go bmtc. sigh. now all the way to ord i will be leading a life i totally nv experience b4 but nevertheless it should be a v enriching job and who noes it may be a blessing in disguise to not become platoon commander and got this exclusive job instead.

2005-02-05T00:31:00.000+08:00

Introducing my Buddy Altona!

Deep Within my Heart

2005-02-03T19:49:00.000+08:00

today is yet another day in tekong attending ipc. nutting special except for a break in the afternoon to go for an interview for them to choose the HQ BMTC training project officer. the interview went smoothly mainly asking me abt my background and also telling me what he is looking out for in the person to take the post. so i juz replied honestly and most of the traits he looking for i think i can still make it so now juz pray hard i will get the job ba.

the officers posted here had an ippt evaluation in the evening and initially i tot i cant make it for gold so it kinda of like demoralising to take the test. basicaly the station tt determines whether i chiong for gold is my SBJ. it is sort of my limiting factor. after so long nv train and work out i guess i wouldnt make it. And... to my surprise, i managed to jump 239cm which is like close to my personal best on my first jump. freaking tyco day. one conclusion i drew is that the matt they use is diff. the friction is more hence easier to jump. bmt ma. must help the recruit as much as possible wat so i think maybe tts why. so in the end wif this, i tried my best to run 2.4km and i juz made it for gold hehe. pretty heng day. the best is if nothing goes wrong it can be endorse for my 200 bucks as my 2nd yr ippt hehe. S_S

den back to bunk, we juz slack jack. eventually me weihuang and chiawei ended up toking abt our love lives lol. i mean the past la. and ya of cos i wun tell u all theirs la. privacy ma. they will kill me if i say anything. but one thing is it triggered my tots on my love life (as in in the past. cos now no gf ma) den i really regret doing quite a few things. and so many memorable incidents happened. i feel really bad and regretful for the pple i hurt and i did learnt alot from these painful experience. in the past, i was too naive and childish when it comes to handling all these painful stuffs. hopefully i have grown from all these. has been single for v long le and sometimes its sad to noe most prob i will remain this status for v long le. maybe until uni? haha must learn to adapt to my single life as a NSF hehe.

An Afternoon in Tekong

2005-02-02T13:40:00.000+08:00

this time round i am blogging at the officers mess lol. this mess is alot bigger and alot emptier. quite sad haha. my frens who are specs here all say the spec mess is more happening and most pple go there including officers. they onli use the officer mess for happy hr cos they need the space ma. btw this officer mess is called Scabbard. Why Scabbard? there is this big big board on the wall that explains.

Traditionally, the infantry is represented by the sword for its sharpness and as a weapon for war. in war, the sword is used to fight battles by countless warriors of the past. The scabbard is where the sword is kept. it is a place where the sword can find peace. So for us, it is like a place for us to relax and enjoy ourselves and relieve ourselves from the stress we have.

Hmm interesting huh. actually the original message is more chim and meaningful. juz that i lazy to go and copy and type out. anyway today is another not so exciting day again. lectures as usual. and my lunch break is actually from 11 to 1.15pm haha cmi. guess i will be force to pick up reading one of these days and will be blogging more at night cos the coms here can onli surf net, use msn and blogging? yes no games. sigh~

An Apology

2005-02-01T22:33:00.000+08:00

I juz read my fren's blog and i realised i have hurt my fren this afternoon for making fun of him. It meant to be a joke didnt tot he really took it to heart. I should have been more tactful and more sensitive. I guess i really gotta to apologise to him for making such remark. sigh~ can i seek your forgiveness?

2nd Day in BMTC

2005-02-01T21:56:00.000+08:00

Blogging this from the spec mess... kinda bored here. Today is my 2nd day here and to tell the truth i still not that used to live here. One thing for sure is its really a boring island haha. Really nothign much to do. Even com wif internet oso v few. must queue summore zzz. Now undergoing instructor prep course so its really free and slack. basically juz lecture all the way. ok tts all for today. its my 2nd post so still not used to blogging a long note. got blog abit not bad liao. progressive ma haha.

2005-01-09T14:49:00.000+08:00

My Favourite Pic Sniper Cat!

Coincidental attempt

2005-01-09T08:43:00.000+08:00

#This is my first time at blogging. Had the idea of doing it quite sometime ago but i juz cant get my lazy self starting on it hehe. Eventually my fren invited me to gmail and so happen to come acroos this blogger link and again it so happen that i am rather stoning at this moment so i decided there is no harm trying. When it comes to this kind of things, i am rather pessimistic in a sense that "who will be interested in my simple and mundane and uninteresting life/blog of mine?"

#Currently serving army, i guess i have quite limited time to blog especially i am on course now. But i guess i have quite a bit of interesting stories to share as i had went thru quite a long military course (10 mths btw) and learnt many things. Ok, so i guess this post got my blog started and i dunno how long i can substain it lol.

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